Over-dosage.

... still bitter sweet /
Sunday, February 20, 2005

This I got from a friend of nyx' blog who in turn got it from a friend's blog.

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
tough one... hmm... oh yah i saw nyx' play for the 1st time harhar!

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
as usual... i smoked another cigarette the day after I promised myself never again will I light another cig! Darn it!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
...hmmm, not that im aware... wla yata?!? i think?!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
my grandpa... i love you daddy!

5. What countries did you visit?
yikes! no visa for me as of the moment.

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
money.

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
April 28. My moms birthday and my grandpa died that day too..

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
passing my ncm101! YEY!

9. What was your biggest failure?
cant think of anything as of the moment-

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
None that I could remember

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Off the Rack Vintage Vans Sneaks... i've been planning to buy me a pair for the past 2 years I finally have one.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
My mom, for being just super last year

13. Whose behaviour appalled you and made you depressed?
My dad... he's drivin' me nuts everytime he's not in the mood

14. Where did most of your money go?
Uhm... do I really have to answer this? food, yosi, tuition... the list goes on and on and on....

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
seeing my"old friends", especially nyx' during my affiliation

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
... favorite things from the sound of music...

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? thinner
iii. richer or poorer? way poorer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
study... i think!?-

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Smoking

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
no clue-

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
unfortunately I'm still single!

23. How many one-night stands?
None... hahahaha :)

24. What was your favourite TV program?
for 2004?!? sex and the city season 5

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
YES!!!!

26. What were the best books or comics you read?
I just hate books-

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Imago! ynna thanx for lending me that cd it was SO worth it!

28. What did you want and got?
independence- *boink*

29. What did you want and not get?
a new phone

30. Favorite film of the year?
hmmm.. i dont know.... shark tale? haha!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
im a pretty boring person... i stayed home and did nuthin'....20

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
-do I really have to answer this?

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
everything rasta slash laid back and dirty "i dont like to shower" look- *wink*

34. What kept you sane?
My mom

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Gwen Stefani and Adam Levine of Maroon5

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
None... honest.

37. Who did you miss?
my mom and cHacHing

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Cathy Coloma!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
you'll never know who your real friends are till you fall flat face on the ground

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Yes, I'm groundedGot my wings clippedI'm surrounded by all this pavement..guess I'll circle while I'm waiting for my fears to dry...Someday I'll fly. Someday I'll soar. Someday I'll be something much more cause I'm bigger than my body gives me credit for..."

i took a shot.
4:07 PM

1 prescribe me a different pill.

Temptations /
Thursday, February 17, 2005

just another thursday night

same old faces staring at the empty

spaces between my toes

I lie awake alone in my bed

flashes of my supposed to be

"significant other"

keeping my self afloat with my feet

underground

my fantasies of unwanted pleasure

sneaks up on me

leaviing blots of red and blue

I keep track of events that eventually

turns into vague images then to memories

just thoughts on a thursday night

never again revisited

i took a shot.
1:06 AM

1 prescribe me a different pill.

10 thank you's from an old friend /
Saturday, February 05, 2005

dear old friend;

How are you doing? Its been a while since we last saw each other. Never a day goes by that I do not think of you and the wonderful memories we've shared. I have missed you so much. I miss having coffee with you. I miss our long talks and especially miss our countless spur of the moment adventures. Why cant we just go back to where we once were? Why cant we just stay insane and be moronic like we always do?

It breaks my heart to see "us" fall apart and it saddens me how we go on with our lives without each other in it. You always told me that we have to live our lives separately sooner or later but i never thought that your sooner is today. I guess I never saw that one coming.

I want to take this latitude to also say thank you. I know I've said it one to many times and maybe you're getting tired of hearing it. Why is this one any different you might ask, guess this time I really mean it.

Thank you for making me laugh and unknowingly making me cry.
Thank you for always trying to be there when I needed you the most and at times when im faking it.
Thank you for sticking up for me even when you know I'm pointless.
Thank you for the hordes of fun whenever I'm bleak and worst when I'm deranged.
Thank you for putting up with all my drama
Thank you for making me that scarf eventhough its too gay for me to wear in public.
Thank you for treasuring our friendship.
Thank you for teaching me how to hold my head up high.
Thank you for simply giving a damn whenever I dont.
Thank you for giving me hope and yes, for being my strength.

I could go on all night but I have to end it somewhere before I get all sissy and sentimental and start to burst in luscious "fruitty" flavors. Antz, Rony, Gada or Argel, I promised my self that never again will I be jealous because I know that what we have is special. I know we'll still be friends after this and that this is just me growing up. I want you to know that I love you and that I'll always love you nonetheless. Again, thanks for everything. Old friend-

i took a shot.
11:53 PM

4 prescribe me a different pill.